i have to say my work energy has been very low this week. brain drain and unable to make decisions. i couldnt finish work faster. i take it from a positive point of view. just the time and opportunity to take it slow. because really, after ramadan, it will be one thing after another.

currently doing continuations for 2017 and then siblings registration and then the public. some decisions need to be made, like should we have night classes for certain levels or how do i manage some requests to change sessions and stuffs like that. i am honestly quite nervous.

but not before my raya-rest week. trying to clear all the off in lieus. pretty much looking forward to that. not that i will be doing much visiting, i would have preferred to stay home and rest. in any case, hoping that afterwards, this work energy will come back as normal. yes, i feel tired, exhausted sometimes and i dont even know why. its not like i have children to take care of after work, or extra moonlighting or studying…i guess its pretty human to feel a bit demotivated. or perhaps i just need to find something new to work on. or it is just my pattern like this,in june, it will be a bit slow and then gear up again come july. perhaps i have worked hard from january to may.

not to worry though. i have mentioned it to a colleague, that i have left my career to God. He will decide for me as He knows what is best for me. If i am still needed here, i will persevere and do the best i can. if there is someone better who can take over this job and it is time for me to go, He will guide me then. truly, me being here is not so much my decision, but planned as He has. this mosque belongs to Him, He guards it and Wallahi, He knows. I am here because of Him, and if I leave, it is because of Him. some soul searching or soul retreat will help me in finding the passion back again.

you know how uplifting it can be to finally understand and embrace everything that happens is because of Him. so live. and just be. Allah is with the patience.

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