I frequently visit Linkinpark.com’s forums board, since they first existed. And I always joined in the conversation especially when it comes to religion. And even though I have yet to really study about other religions, (I’m a comparative religion student, remember?) I learnt something from these people in LP’s boards. One thing was, of course most of them are either Christians or atheists. The funny thing about some of the Christians is that, they don’t believe in their bible, like they found some contradictions in them…they make fun of their religion. Some are just plain confused. And I don’t understand them…I really need to learn more about them. It’s so really interesting!!! I can’t wait!

Quote=I was baptised, but I’m not really Catholic. I believe in a God, but I don’t know whether it fits in with the God of classical theism.

Quote=Well, I was Baptised, I think, only been to church a few times, once to Religion, so I guess that doesn’t really count. But I think I’ve been leaning a bit towards agnostic

But when it comes to Jews, they are really proud of their religion. And they love saying it out loud. Well, they ‘rule’ the world.

As for me….sometimes, I’m unsure whether to say out loud that I’m a Muslim….because of what’s happening around the world right now. I cannot be so sure that these people really know what a Muslim is…all they know was Islam = Terrorism which was a sad thing if they believe the profit-robbing media. Half the world is reading a different thing while the other half is standing up for another different belief. Even those in the same belief is believing in different ideologies. The world is really coming to an end.

What’s even more sad…seeing teenagers who claimed to be of the same belief as me but following their own rebellious will and doing whatever freaking they like…..too much freedom among girls and boys and I mean too much. I’m not saying we can’t be friends but when it comes to sleeping together…it’s just too much. And it’s a nothing thing to them now…like everybody’s doing it…you can’t even get a virgin guy/girl now. I used to learn, back in school, that we are not even allowed to touch of the other species…but now it seems nothing…”I can touch you here, there and everywhere” It’s sad. I am not some kind of orthodox person..I watch all kinds of movies..I love rock/alternative/punk bands, I play the guitar and a few times got myself drifted to some kind of imaginations…but that doesn’t mean I’m going to do ‘it’ now, let alone touchings. Seriuosly, I don’t know what is happening. I wish I can help make things better but I don’t know how..That’s how I’m in such in need of searching myself.

Around this issue…the people here, especially in this campus..there’s two kinds of people…those who seem to be very religious and those who’re not. We can differentiate them from the way they dress…and the religious ones don’t seem to mix with those who they think are not religious, but please this is an Islamic University..it’s all very obvious all of us are Muslims…but even then,we can’t really say who’s more faithful than others. And the locals find it hard to mix with the foreigners. We cannot judge people from the way they dress, but then again…the way they dress don’t seem to potray themselves as people of faith. And they want to blame the religious ones for not giving them a chance….And at the same time, not all religious ones are true to themselves….and they want to say “we’re just humans.”

I love loose straight jeans but I’m freaking uncomfortable wearing unbreathable tight shirts and don’t even think of tight skirts, I don’t wear skirts, except when I have to for formal functions here. Looking at other people, I really am searching for myself instead.

So what’s your religion? Saying I’m a Muslim is not enough…and we can’t even question “how muslim are you?” It’s all up to Allah. There’s so many kinds of people, I have to get rid of the hate and bad thoughts….I really have to…

A parting note: the people in LP’s boards have this some funny attitude…..each and every one of them think they’re the only one who knows what’s ‘real music’ and diss others who they think are tweenies or wannabes whatever. The more metallic, the more music intelligent you are….the more new age, the cooler you are, the more rock, the better you are…it’s a battle of who have better taste in music and I think they are all the same…not even musicians know what real music is~ It’s all in your self but that doesn’t mean we can judge other people’s taste in music…it’s all very stupid to me.