I have been waiting for this day for so long. For so many weeks I have missed it because of either classes or some other things. And I have been waiting for this day which I thought I got to watch CHARMED…..but my hopes are dashed!! Some Turkish girls wanted to watch some cooking show!! A cooking show at night!! And I missed Charmed so much!!! I am so heartbroken!!!

Charmed aside….my brain is actually exhausted today. I had two brain draining classes, Religion and Islamic Ethics, both of which have some serious issues for discussion. On Religion, we discussed about Christianity which was very much confusing with all their history facts and the doctrines and the denominations~ And later in Ethics, we had some Kantian ethics and utilitarianism and comparing them with Islamic ethics. I am truly exhausted. And seriously I need a lot of reading to do!! Not only for exams, but for knowledge sake itself. And learning Religion is just not enough for one semester. There’s still a lot of things that need clarifications, I watched videos on them, but that may just confuse me more! And let’s not forget Judaism, which I haven’t really master them. Exhausting!

So just to let out stress, I went to Wangsa Maju JJ Mall, alone… I needed to be alone, no mood for any chitchats, took some money, had lunch and STARBUCKS!! And now I’m here at the CC, doing some blogging and adding pictures to mypicjournal. Supposedly to watch CHARMED but….

And at the moment, I am still angry and disappointed at someone. He said it himself he would email me again, after that ‘apology’ on already three blank messages, but until now, there’s no sign of it!! And why should I send him one when I’m still not cooled down over this, I thought he would be smart enough to send one real email, not through friendster, but that is yet to arrive from him. I’m just waiting for one, see what he’ll do. I’m truly fed up that whenever I send a message to him, he replied, but came out blank. Three times already!! My patience has its limit~ And he took it for granted that I’m ok with that when actually I am VERY disappointed that I couldn’t read what he wrote!!! And I don’t know if he ever wondered that and cared~ So at the moment until I can find the heart to write one for him, I’m keeping quiet. It’s really hard to get myself back to ‘normal’ once I’m angry or disappointed at things. A lot of self-coaxings need to be done, and I have no time for that now that I’m busy with exams.

And another thing, I saw an old friend of mine who is now his ‘friend’. I don’t know who invited who but she’s there in his account. And why it disturbed me so much? I don’t know. Well, I ‘ve got history with this girl. Some old secondary school silly issue with her….briefly- I liked a guy, and this guy supposedly like me, she knew I liked this guy alot and suddenly before I knew it, she was exchanging phone numbers with this guy and surprise, surprise Seri, she went steady with this guy…and which she didn’t tell me but instead a godsister told me and this guy’s friends confirmed it. I was so heartbroken, that a ‘good friend’ would do this to me…but what’s done is done, I have no desire to fight over a guy, who was not a very smart guy actually, and end of the story. So now, I don’t know why it disturbed me that she’s his friend?? Is it that I don’t want history happening again. Who knows what she’s going to do now, that is if she knows I’m his friend. And another thing, she can add him as a friend, and not me?? Ok, these things are just making me angry and I just don’t want to think about it, if I can ever avoid it!!! But who am I to question? Aaarrrggghhh!!!! One thing leads to another!!

I’ll just stop.