I turned 22 today!! How time flies~~ amidst the business, I almost forgot my birthday. I know it’s approaching 14th July, but it doesn’t stick to the mind that it is my birthday, until wednesday night, Izhar wished me after ASSIIUM’s meeting. Of course, it’s his birthday too and must have been waiting for someone to wish him, hehe.

And the lovely girls surprised me with a cake!! It has somewhat become a tradition for us to surprise the birthday girls but as for me, I did not expect it because most of us was busy with IMEC and had classes which started too early at 8 and all. But they did, after all. I’m happy and grateful to have them as friends + a cousin. Grateful. Allah bless them, Insya Allah.

I guess the downside of it was me to expect a call that never came. Foolish of me to think that someone would call. Very foolish, and what made it worse was an email that simply said happy birthday. I mean even strangers can say that to me. And I thought this someone is a CLOSE friend. And to think I had quite a hard time composing a proper wish for this someone on the last birthday!! And sending that wish way earlier than it’s actual day, and I got this two-word wish from someone only today, a day after my ‘big’ day. Sometimes it’s just shit when you care about someone, and they are just heck care. whatever, he started it all. Yes, it’s the thought that counts, people say. But I guess, how deep a meaning and sincerity of that thought that really matters. A thought is just a dead thinking unless there’s meaning to it.

And there’s another funny person, a senior, who’s been giving signs but I don’t know whether there’s meaning to it, or just teasings. But I’m taking it all as mere jokes. And yeah, same thing goes to him, a wish is just a wish unless there’s sincerity. You don’t just wish a person happy birthday just for the sake of it!! It’s just like you just got introduced to a new person and it happened that it was her birthday so you just wish her anyway, for the sake of wishing, not because it’s her birthday and that the day might mean a lot to her. This senior, no calls, no sms, but the wish was like a passing remark on the way to class and he happened to see me. And I thought there might be something!

So, apart from the lovely girls’ surprise, it’s been disappointments this birthday. It made me realise, until someone really cares about you, only then a birthday would be meaningful. That’s the problem, sometimes I care too much about people, but people just don’t care.

Anyway…HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!