yeah I’m back within an hour after my last post. Just when I’m on the rhythm to post, the lab had to close~ So I’m back, at Halimah’s net room. Anything for the sake of a blog!!! So what had I been ranting about just an hour ago?? About a stupid guy~ I’m being nasty saying this out loud but I’m just going to let it go. A friend had asked me once what if he reads my blog?? I doubted it but in case, he’s reading, what the f&&k, it’s what I’m feeling and I’m being me in here. And he should know that he’s losing it. Losing me. Or maybe I’m being irrational. Still, I’m going to see what’s heppening next, what’s with the mistaken identity that he saw just now. Let’s just pretend it was me there. ANd I didn’t reply to his message because I didn’t have the credit and he KNOWS about it. And if he really cared, I was thinking, he should CALL, not sms. If he had call, maybe I can ‘forgive’ him there and then. And if he REALLY F$$$ing cared, he would have call me BY NOW, since I didn’t relpy to his msg earlier, and he should be worried and anxious to seek for my forgiveness…and maybe I would have tell him he got the wrong person there, I was still in campus at that time. (For the record, I went out at 6.45pm, and I went to Wangsa Maju, NOT fu**king otk). SO since there’s no msg or even a missed call from him today, and I will not make the first move, whatever the situation is, I’m disappointed with him. I’ll give it a chance anyway. Still, THANK LORD, it didn’t really happened, that it wasnt me he saw. What if it’s the reality? Things would have been worst. Considering my rantings was BAD, it would have been badder. THank LOrd. Seriously I don’t know what he’s on about? What does the now-guy wants?

Is it wrong to want a guy who likes me and will try hard enough to get close to me and try to make the first moves? Make it clear what friendship he wants from me? Is it so wrong? I’m a very difficult person to please and it’s even harder to get my attention, I’m 60% independent, and so will the guy just try? If not, just F@!# off.

I’ve been bad and cursed a lot tonight. But I can’t help it. Nitez~