500th post.

Kite runner by Khaled Hosseini is one literature you must not miss. honestly, i bought the book, one day from kinokuniya, without really wanting to read it. just one of the days when i wanted to buy a book, but not having any preference. so i just grab the kite runner, because it’s like the talk of the booktown!

but now i know why it’s the TALK of booktown. it’s just extra ordinary, inspiring, and i found myself unable to control my reactions, while reading on the mrt or the bus, like saying “WHAT??!!” a bit too loud or showing my disgust towards a character a bit more visibly than usual, in public. seriously. it’s almost embarrassing my being too caught up with the book! yes, kak Z, you’re right, you just can’t put the book down.

well, my life has been rather peaceful nowadays. i have managed to somewhat adapt my self to this working-but-not-at the -office job. and i’m beginning to love it. i found our am a bit more productive at home, actually concentrating on one report as much as i can, and not feeling sleepy at all. well, i did feel sleepy sometimes when i was working in the office, maybe it’s the cold or the meal after lunch.

maybe it’s just my style. preferring to do what i need to at my own pace. but of course this cannot go on for too long. some day soon, i might have to get a proper 8-5 job. but alhamdulillah, so far, even with the projects i’m handling, it was well paid off.

once, i thought i’m becoming more like the women in Anita Brookner’s novels: alone, depressed, normal, aloof, drifting apart, losing…until a point of time, i stopped reading anita brookner, lest i really became one. but not anymore. i’m pretty much healed, in many ways. i mean i shouldn’t be too hard on myself. i have all these gifts right in front of my eyes. and time.

i’m just realising, the Lord’s giving me an experience of what i’ve wanted and prayed for. i guess, i shouldn’t waste that now.

zendagi migzara….life goes on…