we met at far east plaza, and orchard looks like hongkong (ok, exaggerated but it somehow looks different, some building demolished to make way for new ones, underground tunnels short numbered) it’s been eons since i last wandered orchard road. our big brother president even had to FETCH our little brothers. we have spent TOO MUCH TIME in KL. Time for a resocialization session.

and it’s freezing cold at far east’s burger king. (assiium seems to have the tendency to make meetings at burger kings lately)

[oh don’t forget that muchly anticipated meeting with alumni at starbucks+gray drizzling rain+ and kental people all aorund + CARS and play-it-out-TOO -LOUD Dj *i can’t hear a word you say, dear who-sat-beside-me*!!)- 14th april 07]

the botanic gardens is a beautiful place. we found our way around the garden and the spot we would like to have the secret garden event. *am thinking a garden wedding is nice too,haha*

a moment of silence for the victims of the virginia tech random shooting massacre. learning institutions have to start to be more serious with security, especially uia, especially uia.

3 more days to spend here before going back to uia. two more months to go~ oh have i told you, the exam results are due tomorrow at 4pm. scaariyyo~

Siti

(hmm, not so rock on! with that pretty dress)

AND

Nuri

(not so sweet then with that smug look)

actually, i don’t really have anything to say. it’s just that i like looking at my blog~ i could spend hours just staring at it. but then….

how could a person, a friend, who managed to charm with the words said and the things done, could suddenly be a complete stranger? it’s like here is the person who had been there for the friend, and would do anything for one, at the expense of hurting oneself, anything for one to be happy, if it means one going back to the ex-girlfriend. at that moment, everything was right, as if fated to meet. as if this is how God wants us to meet. but is this how God wants to end it? ignorance is bliss, right? but i don’t know how it went wrong. and it hurts that one is spewing words to another, words which i thought was meant only for me. had one forgotten that? or maybe am asking for too much. am too holding on to the past. for too long. i only want those times back. times when distance don’t mean a thing, and even a simple thing would always be a reason to tell. and you always just know~ you always know when i’m angry, when i’m worrying. i do not know why this has to bother me much. i can live forever and still would look back on one. what is it with one. i’m seriously tired of this. i used to believe everything that you say. and i still do. i still do.

goodness me! how melancholic can i get?? i got carried away!

but seriously though. i wish i could just shut one out of my life because it seems like one has forgotten about me. i mean nothing now. how best could you be, one? DON’T SAY WORDS THAT YOU DON’T MEAN. i was just a person who you managed to confuse with the ex. you were going through a hard time, i was there and you confused yourself, and dragged me into your world of LOST. you are always lost, now and forever. i was once there when you were lost! and i thought you got over it, you left and i mean you LEFT and i found out you’re still lost, because that was what you spewed out to another. i don’t want to judge you. but you made that clear enough. i just hope you remember those friendly days. because i do. because it’s you.

and you know what, i shouldn’t have told you about this song, because it was meant for someone who will really mean to me for life. and you spoilt it by singing it to me. it’s MY song, you knew that, don’t you? and now my favourite song became the worst memory of you. the LOST friend. how best can you get?

oh yeah, lesson to learn: DON’T BE THERE when a guy just broke up. you end up being the aunt aggie and getting meaningless hopes. and i am not the place for comfort. i’m anti post-break up-and looking-for-comfort guys. i learnt. twice.

whatever. i pray, truly pray, you’ll find your way. don’t get lost, ok. because it worries me everytime you’re lost and you know that. you are, a FRIEND, after all. and i’ll be missing you. but i’m a girl who has her pride. maybe this is how God wants it to end. we started with silence and glances, we end with silence and absence.

http://media.imeem.com/m/L5LNaQznvL/aus=false/

ok, when i last say ‘something nice to look at,’ i don’t mean i like watching hugging couples, (lord, reminds me of some old pervy and shorts wearing apeks at the kopitiam who have nothing better to do), the pics are just nice…to me. it’s cute. other than that, it’s more of the whiteness of the blog. i don’t know why i sound defensive about the picture anyway. must be because of my sister. she keeps saying ‘eeekk’ everytime she visits my blog!!! so don’t blame me for being conscious. i stand corrected.

so i’ve accomplished one good thing the past few days, managed to confirm this programme which assiium wants to organize with Darul Ma’wa. we had planned this for months!!! and just about to get hold of it, but we had to compromise… or else, there’ll be no hakuna matata whatsoever. (hakuna matata is the name of the programme, it’s supposed to mean ‘dont worry be happy). and the initial plan was to have it at the Zoo, but that also had to be changed. the officer from darul ma’wa wants us to have it at some park, and botanic garden will be the place. so we have to make some great games to fill the time. I’m still digesting this information. i don’t know whether it’s good decision making or not. i just agreed to it. but there were some committees with me there who gave their opinions and support.

ok, let see. we actually set our minds on darul ihsan for this programme, and we were determined to have it on this 14th april. but then, darul ihsan said they are scheduled to have a trip to the zoo themselves yesterday on the 10th. so technically, they went already. though we mentioned to them that we can do other activities on the 14th, but they were busy that day. so it’s almost like a rejection to the face.

and then we tried to contact darul ma’wa. emailed the person in charge and didn’t receive any replies from them, when surprise2X, the very person that i had called at darul ma’wa is qzai’s aunt!!! WHAT A SMALL WORLD! so during the committee’s meeting last tuesday at raffles’ burger king, she contacted her aunt, and there you are, an impromptu appointment at darul ma’wa made that same day!!! (her aunt said she did reply to the email, but somehow i don’t receive them). thank God for qzai~

but the thing is, we have to do it at the botanic garden and it will be postponed to 20th JUNE instead(right after the short semester ends). the point of calling darul ma’wa was because we want to have it on the 14th APRIL!! nad we want to have it the ZOO!! but then again, they were very supportive of this event~ only that we have to accomodate to their availability and we have to think about our classes too during the short semester. so well, after thinking properly, i think it’s the right thing to do. hopefully, the show will go on~ hope haron the president is ok with it.

orait, am going to finish up reading this nicholas sparks’ new novel, True Believer. I don’t usually read sappy novels, but just to fill up time, and the book was ordered by ratu through readers’ digest(it’s a 4 novels in 1 book). if not me, who else will read it??

At last, something nice to look at!!! been looking for something that fits the mood i’m having. this i found after two nights!! the couple looks cute anyway. it somehow reminds me of one tree hill, lucas and peyton, nathan and hayley and its emo-istic.

and the whiteness!!! it makes me think of bright lights and light headedness and makes me want to fly!!(ok itu drag sikit). this is so spick and span!! don’t you all agree? i just need some colour and calmness in my life. black is just depressing at the moment.

YUN, i think the blogskin you meant was the one with the rose right? hmm, that’s just temporary, and it’s actually serabut!! the rose is nice but not the grey!! yuckkk.

so yeah, i like this~

in memory of the rose i mentioned

there’s a quote on it, it goes : Loveliest of lovely things are they, on earth that soonest pass away. The rose that lives its little hour is prized beyond the sculptured flower.

*pic from deviantart, quote from somewhere, i can’t remember.

1. safely back home…even though with the drraaggggiing journey that we had on friday. NO MORE 5.30 pm bus, girls! zha had no problem since she went back to JB and her dad fetched her, azimah and ruwaida don’t seem to complain much…aili and yun…the epitome of what-the -tooottt written on their faces, and the fact that the journey doesn’t make the ideal last-day-of -exam and going-back -home journey. sorry girls. i think it was my idea to take the 5.30 pm bus. didn’t expect it to be WORST.

2. went out with my friends saturday night. the friends : hafid, hamzah and his girl friend, hazlyn. i felt almost like a tourist being shown around singapore!! hehe. all the same, thanks guys for the night! i enjoyed it! i didn’t bore you all, i hope?

3. as the title goes.. i have spent my sunday night watching tv!! there was A.I artificial intelligence (a fave!!!). but it’s how tv5 managed to nicely arrange the time for three shows which portrays totally different kinds of women back to back. What are they trying to tell us?? There’s Ugly Betty (brainiac without the looks but with THE HEART), and there’s America’s Next Top Model (can i be a model too?? haha. looks, fashion, the makes + the diva-istic bitchy attitudes and cat fights), and right after that, it’s Pepper Dennis (an all about my-career-is-my-life lady). I was thinking I could be all three!! ok maybe not The Model, but hey beauty is in the heart. every girl’s a beauty. one prather philosophical kind of review though= models have to WORK HARD and rush around for that one moment of fame. and only the gorgeous wins, but even then a pretty face is not the ultimatum. While being pretty ugly betty and pepper dennis, brains and a good heart are keywords to a successful life. hmm, that’s motivating!

4. to all dear iiu-mates, have a nice two-weeks holidays!!!

HEY THERE’S A NEW PHONE IN THE HOUSE!!! my house that is.

The latest sony ericsson’s w880i, sleek and slim and the world in your hands!

But it’s not mine!!! it’s my mother’s!!! uuuwwwwwaaaaaa!!!!

okayss…will be back to IIU this week. exam on wednesday….and oh yeah, we have to angkut all our khazanah to the storeroom, because there will be a shuffle of rooms for the students. i don’t understand lah why they have to do this. it’s an annual dreaded event ever! we have to clear our rooms, not a single dot left in the previous room, pack up everything into the storeroom, and when the next semester commences, bring all your STUFFS to the ‘new’ room = arrange every single thing again. don’t forget the huge boxes and bags that need moving. it’s exciting but somehow, more dreading than ever.

will be here by friday insya allah, for the real break.

and here is the only ok song i can find for some new indo songs to hum to. the song is not that new anyway.

http://media.imeem.com/m/XMYov5Aase/aus=false/

I came upon this al-ma’arif group and invite myself into that group, and realized that I do not know a single girl in that group!!! there’s 114 members at the moment and they are all like what, 16??!! 17??! zaman bilanyer batch ni?? orait, they’re juniors, whom when i left school, they must have been in the ‘all-over-the-place primary students’!!! oh, yeah there’s kak fiqa and she’s the only person i recognize there. seriously, people are getting younger or what?! and look at them now, they are gorgeous girls, they know how to dress up, lipsticks and all. thinking back…when i was their age….i don’t bother with those things!!

*sigh* schooldays are the best~

found this song, a fave once upon a time ago.

http://media.imeem.com/m/yrOUOCD719/aus=false/