Yesterday was Aili’s birthday. We had a small gathering at her room, much to her surprise!! We bought a cake for her- Secret Recipe’s Chocolate Banana, and some chips and drinks.

The plan was Shasha and Za would be in Aili’s room, wished her birthday at midnight and straightaway to bed, off the lights and all. Meanwhile, me- Qad- Qzai- Miza and Aisyah had gathered in Mint’s room (neighbour to Aili) with the cake and all. All the while, I was nervous~ I always am in times of surprises. So around 12.10 we quietly went to her room, with candles and cake, and just when Aili opened the door to Mint’s usual knock-at-night, and she was really taken by surprise!!! Then came the birthday song and wishes and laughters and yes, the yummy yummy cake!!

The climax of the birthday ‘party’ was a pact all nine of us made. To meet again in 10 years’ time at a fixed place and appointed time~ No matter where we will be or what we will be doing, we are to meet to fulfil this bond which had been made. And I will remember this day, of this bond, of this pact. Insya Allah, we will meet. It’s actually something to look forward, I think everyone should have this pact with their friends. I’m already wonderingwhatwould all of us be, who our husbands would be, the children we will have. Ok, I’m getting excited already!! Now I can’t wait for that special day!!! It somewhat bring us all closer.

I can’t wait for that day. Insya Allah, all of us would have accomplished the best in our lives.

Why must I noticed every single thing?? Every single thing that someone puts in the profile and why must I think that those have hidden meanings in them?? Why must I noticed?? Can’t I be like some blur person and not noticed them??? Someone puts some Cake songs in the profile, and I went to look for the lyrics to those songs, and I can’t help but think there must be something. Furthermore, I know the songs that this someone likes will eventually have something to do with the things that this person is facing through. And I know what this person had gone through, so ……shit, I know! I know the feelings, the thoughts, just from reading those lyrics and I know why this someone likes those songs~ I know!

Am I paranoid or what?? Or am I just caring too much??? I’ve had it with them ah!!

And amidst the ‘happiness’ concerning Adit, I know I have to keep a distance from him. He’s being a good friend helping me through that cd, but I know, (because I noticed too much), that there has to be a distance. And come on lah, Adit, I just want to be friends…it’s not like I like him a lot~

So that’s it~ I’ve had it. Especially with the aforementioned person.

Yesterday was a very unexpected day for me!! And I am still glowing over what happened last night…

Firstly was my Religions exam. I was so surprised by how easy and straightforward the questions are!! And what was even more surprising was all the things that I read were the ones that were asked! I almost screamed the moment I read the questions. But not to be too happy, insya Allah, I answered well, but it will be guaranteed that the lecturer will mark them strictly! So I’m praying for the best now.

After that, me, Qad and Mint went to pasar malam. So I was hoping that I would some ‘interesting’ people there, but unfortunately no~ That doesn’t matter much. So we bought some food and crackers and a vcd -Malay movie Gangster. We went back and had dinner at HS canteen. Then suddenly I got a message from Aili asking where I was and that a friend of ours, Usama, wanted to see me!! Surprise, surprise!! Now why would Usama wanted to look for me out of the blue?? Yes, he’s a friend but it was weird that now he’s looking for me, like it’s some important matter. So my mind was wandering and worried, I was nervous. Now, for one thing, Usama and Adit the cute guy are friends and Usama knows that I have a thing for Adit. Mint and Qad gave so many suggestions on why he’s looking for me. Maybe Usama just wanted to say hi or something. So we waited for him at HS, which he took such a long time to reach~

So then I saw Aili, Shasha and Usama and another guy!! And I was like, who’s that guy?? Don’t tell me it’s Adit!! But no!! Thank God…it was another friend of Usama. I asked Usama what was it that seems important to see me?? And surprise2, he took out a cd from his bag and gave it to me. I didn’t really look at it at first, and asked him what’s in it? I was really confused. Usama just said it was for me. So when I looked at the cd carefully ……….there’s some Arabic scribbling there and I saw Adit’s name!!! And I just screamed aloud, and the rest of the girls got excited too, and HS was awaken for while! Then Usama said the cd was from Adit, for me!! I said thanks to Usama for I don’t know how many times!! I was smiling the whole night and the girls kept teasing~

Back in Mahallah, went to Qad’s room and we played the cd in her laptop. It was a very interesting cd! All kinds of Flash clips all in Arabic, and there’s even clips that might be important for my Fiqh Sirah subject!! I am so touched by this gift! I did mention to Adit that Fiqh Sirah is a hard subject, but I didn’t imagined that he would like collect useful clips, and burned them for me~ I am so touched and still am. Now I really need to see Adit to say thanks! So yeah, that’s the most happening thing that happened to me for the whole week~ Thank you Adit!!

Watched Gangster last night which was the malay version of fast and furious, which was kinda cool, all those racings uptown in KL. But the storyline was not that strong or thrilling> Nothing much.

And this morning, I did my washing. Three sets of them! One using the washing machine down in my block, and two more sets handwashed!! I’m happy anyway!!

Thanks Adit!!

I’m at the library’s multimedia lab now, trying to ease my miind…having a headache now and I’ll be having a most important exam tomorrow! Religion!! And I have not really finish reading them. It’s not that I haven’t read any at all, I had before, but you know, when it’s exams, you fill like you haven’t read enough. I’m just praying for the best.

My first two exam papers was Alhamdulillah, quite easy…Study of Qur’an and Arabic language. I hope I did well in those. I was blessed for my Study of Qur’an, we had to read four long surahs, and what I did was just read the first fifty verses of every surahs and surprise2, all the questions were from the first few ayats of the surahs!! I was really blessed but still, no full confidence yet. I’m hoping for the best.

So tomorrow will be Religions paper and I am really worried because I heard the questions are going to be much harder and would be more critical and comparison of religions. Thank God, the exam will be in the afternoon at 3. So I have plenty more time to read.

Ok, till here now, got to catch up on reading.

Two days to my first exam, which is on this Saturday – Study of Qur’an II which I had not read a single thing yet. Nevertheless, my week had been quite a fun one, spending time with friends. And I did study….a little… I spent whole days in campus, either at HS -lunch, hanging out, discussion, or at the library – computer lab, revision, hanging out reading newspapers, or at the Cafe near the river (which we call ‘longkang’)… A final reminder : STUDY SERI!!!
I did have revision and discussion but I know, most of the time, we were just talking~ That’s what happened when we are in a group, less study, more talk. But no one is to blame, I enjoyed hanging out… Insya Allah, I can do it!

My family will be going down to KL next month, after my exams!!! I’m thrilled!! I can’t wait for them to come here!!!

Had my mid term test for Christianity and Alhamdulillah, I passed. Got the same marks as the previous test. So now I’m worried for the real deal, the final exam, which of course will be a much harder one. I hope I can do better in the finals.

Last evening went to ‘night market’ and surprise, surprise….I saw Adit in a car with a friend!! And what’s cute was that he recognized me!! OK, me, Mint, Qad and Kak Nunu was walking along the night market, and we had never bothered to look at the cars passing by before, but yesterday… I don’t know he was there, Mint saw him first and and suddenly looked surprised at me…at first I thought there’s some guy she had a crush on, but then my eyes were ‘attracted’ to this car and there he was!! He saw me!! Of course, there’s nothing going on, just something to make me happy and spiced up UIA life~ But he is cute and no harm being friends with him. And he drives!!

And lastly, certain someone has not replied yet to my message. Last Sunday, I believe we were online at the same time! But so unfortunately the pc I was using had no messenger nor irc so I don’t know how to communicate with him. Why I said so, because when I received his message, the time stated that he was only five hours ‘away’ from me, so I replied back…and suddenly a newer message from him came on. So yeah, we were online at the same time!!! And now, I’m anxiously waiting for a reply from him…maybe it would be the point which everything will be clear… clear to me on what is really going on because I don’t understand the situation~ I hope he will understand~

What I did today??

Oh yeah, had a Halaqah exam today, which I hope I can get an A for that. I mean, it’s one of the easiet ‘paper’ to get an A for. Kalau tak, rugi!!! What’s it all about?? It’s about ‘ethics’ and how to live your life the Islamic way… The exam is only 20%, 80% would go to our participation, presentation and attendance throughout the semester, I know I can get 80% flat for that~ Still, please….A!!!

Then spent the afternoon in the library with Fiza, discussing about Religions subjects, we’ll be having another test on Christianity this Monday… So I’m revising for exams as well on that.

I had a good talk with Kak Halimah yesterday in the library. I envy her way of thinking. She really thinks far and sure about what she wants and going to do~ She talks of the troubled and confused Muslim world, and something about relationships and her experience. So I thank her for that. People around me has been teaching me quite a lot and I didn’t get them from the friends I usually hang out with. I don’t know why~ I thought I have the friends that would help me, but not yet I guess. I’m still finding myself…moral of the story: know more people. Just like most lecturers has advised~

OK, got to get back to my room, and continue my revision~

Oh yeah, another thing…I was taken by surprise and still can’t forgive the person who did it to me…..
I was at HS with Mint, she had a discussion, I was having mu lunch….and the rest, Miza-Mah and Qad wanted to go to some warehouse Adidas sale. So I had wanted to spend the day in the library and I didn’t know I got a message from them till the last minute.
So they arrived at HS, met us, Mint was paying for the car….and suddenly these people came, asked why I didn’t reply to their messaged, and just out of nowhere, two fingers pulled at my ear!!! What the…..!!!! Who the heck is she to pull at my ear??? Even my Ratu and Romo never do that!!
In fact, myRatu, cared alot about my ear~ And what’s with the ear ‘sickness’ that I’m having right now, so the hurt from the pull really hurts!!! It hurts like shit!! And I can never forgive her for this!!! Seriously~ My Ratu was so concerned about my ear, and here some people out of nowhere, did this to me. No forgiveness!

You see lah, this guy…
I have promised myself not to message him until he sends me one. And so he did after like almost to two weeks with the very much appropriate question ever…. “Am I angry at him??”
That was his question, and what am I supposed to do?? I don’t know whether my anger was that obvious but seems like he knows~ He always seems to be able to read my mind!
And now, I’m contemplating whether to reply to him or not~

I have been waiting for this day for so long. For so many weeks I have missed it because of either classes or some other things. And I have been waiting for this day which I thought I got to watch CHARMED…..but my hopes are dashed!! Some Turkish girls wanted to watch some cooking show!! A cooking show at night!! And I missed Charmed so much!!! I am so heartbroken!!!

Charmed aside….my brain is actually exhausted today. I had two brain draining classes, Religion and Islamic Ethics, both of which have some serious issues for discussion. On Religion, we discussed about Christianity which was very much confusing with all their history facts and the doctrines and the denominations~ And later in Ethics, we had some Kantian ethics and utilitarianism and comparing them with Islamic ethics. I am truly exhausted. And seriously I need a lot of reading to do!! Not only for exams, but for knowledge sake itself. And learning Religion is just not enough for one semester. There’s still a lot of things that need clarifications, I watched videos on them, but that may just confuse me more! And let’s not forget Judaism, which I haven’t really master them. Exhausting!

So just to let out stress, I went to Wangsa Maju JJ Mall, alone… I needed to be alone, no mood for any chitchats, took some money, had lunch and STARBUCKS!! And now I’m here at the CC, doing some blogging and adding pictures to mypicjournal. Supposedly to watch CHARMED but….

And at the moment, I am still angry and disappointed at someone. He said it himself he would email me again, after that ‘apology’ on already three blank messages, but until now, there’s no sign of it!! And why should I send him one when I’m still not cooled down over this, I thought he would be smart enough to send one real email, not through friendster, but that is yet to arrive from him. I’m just waiting for one, see what he’ll do. I’m truly fed up that whenever I send a message to him, he replied, but came out blank. Three times already!! My patience has its limit~ And he took it for granted that I’m ok with that when actually I am VERY disappointed that I couldn’t read what he wrote!!! And I don’t know if he ever wondered that and cared~ So at the moment until I can find the heart to write one for him, I’m keeping quiet. It’s really hard to get myself back to ‘normal’ once I’m angry or disappointed at things. A lot of self-coaxings need to be done, and I have no time for that now that I’m busy with exams.

And another thing, I saw an old friend of mine who is now his ‘friend’. I don’t know who invited who but she’s there in his account. And why it disturbed me so much? I don’t know. Well, I ‘ve got history with this girl. Some old secondary school silly issue with her….briefly- I liked a guy, and this guy supposedly like me, she knew I liked this guy alot and suddenly before I knew it, she was exchanging phone numbers with this guy and surprise, surprise Seri, she went steady with this guy…and which she didn’t tell me but instead a godsister told me and this guy’s friends confirmed it. I was so heartbroken, that a ‘good friend’ would do this to me…but what’s done is done, I have no desire to fight over a guy, who was not a very smart guy actually, and end of the story. So now, I don’t know why it disturbed me that she’s his friend?? Is it that I don’t want history happening again. Who knows what she’s going to do now, that is if she knows I’m his friend. And another thing, she can add him as a friend, and not me?? Ok, these things are just making me angry and I just don’t want to think about it, if I can ever avoid it!!! But who am I to question? Aaarrrggghhh!!!! One thing leads to another!!

I’ll just stop.

Went to Timesquare on Sunday and had a fantastic time!!! An all girls’ day and only us. Me, Kak Miza, Mint, Mah, Qadar and her friends- Farhana and later Kak Dewi joined us, who just reached here from Singapore. And I was the ‘cutest hottest’ chick of the day!!! hehe, it’s just that I got to wear a new darky pinky dress which my mother bought for me and my new Adidas Campus sneakers!!

It’s my first time to Timesquare and it’s a huge place! With too many shops you got bored just wandering and windowshopping! The attraction was an indoor theme park. Like there’s a roller coaster and a few other cool rides which I didn’t get to try any!! Why, don’t ask..

We took a bus to Pudu and then walked to Timesquare, which was quite dangerous since we walked in between buses. Had lunch, windowshopped and then we went to Low Yat Plaza, something like the Sim Lim Square of Singapore. All about computers and anything digital and the place was crowded!! Mint wanted to buy some laptop accessories. Then just nearby was Bukit Bintang and Sungai Wang, which was something like Far East Plaza, all the cool people and cool shops are there. Mint wanted to buy some And 1 (basketball-hiphop brand) for someone special. Yeah, it’s all about Mint doing the shopping~ So this Echo Park shop was cool and right beside it was another cool shop with one cool handsome salesguy!! Windowshopping~

And as always, wherever we went, there’s sure to be some funny thing that we did that might attract attention unintentionally. Ok, we were at this games corner and there was this couple playing some kind of music game of drums, so they were playing it with a funny song and we were like watching them intently, and when they finished playing, all of us, spontaneously, without plan, applaused the couple for finishing the music game. And everyone turned at us, even the couple themselves were surprised. But seriously, we didn’t plan it~ The act just happened, we were surprised at ourselves!

And then we walked to Lot 10, everything is so near to each other~ We ate at Mcdonald’s and Mint treated us to Secret Recipe cakes for EACH ONE of us. Bless her.

So the whole day was spent outside, but we had fun, since it’s going to be the last outing for the semester because we will be having exams in 10 days!!!