1. mom or dad?- can’t live without them 2. tv or radio?- tv3. family or bf@gf?- family ah!! 4. life or death?- can’t escape them5. rtm or tv3?- MTV6. chocolate or ice cream?- please don’t make me choose….7. clubbing or smoking?- —pass—8. [v] or hitz 16?- mtv9. sister or brother?- sisters & brothers10. straight or curly hair?- straight11. western or eastern food?- asalkan halal12. sunway lagoon or genting hlands?- genting ah13. harrier or stream?- i seriously don’t know what these are14. free hair or covered?- covered15. sexy or not?- —pass—16. married or single?- single17. milo or ovaltine?- milo 18. britney or christina?- ???19. hilary or lindsay?- who are they?20. siti or misha?- siapa ni orang2 ni??!! ;)21. adam or zahid?- sumpah tak kenal22. farah or linda?- ???&&&88%%465!!!23. dunhill or marlboro?- stinkers24. mcd or kfc?- mcd’s more affordable. so mcd ah25. skool or university?- love both!!! : )

Two more papers to go!! Then I have to clean up my room and start packing all the stuffs and put them in the storeroom. People have all started packing but I haven’t touch any single thing! And the store room is already full!! Can’t wait till finish my exams!!

Yesterday had Islamic Ethics paper which was ok but it could have been better. Seriously. And I’m quite disappointed with myself. The words just don’t come out, it’s hard to construct simple sentences!! I hope for the lecturer’s grace when marking my paper! I know I could write better!! Ok no point whining over it now, just hope for the best~

So tomorrow there’ll be Sociology and on Saturda, Fiqh Sirah…which even though I haven’t read anything about it, I can’t wait for the day because that’ll be my last paper and also I get to see…..Adit!!!
It’s weird, I had a dream about him this morning~ It’s a funny dream, by the way..but somehow it made me woke up witha smile!

Yesterday was Aili’s birthday. We had a small gathering at her room, much to her surprise!! We bought a cake for her- Secret Recipe’s Chocolate Banana, and some chips and drinks.

The plan was Shasha and Za would be in Aili’s room, wished her birthday at midnight and straightaway to bed, off the lights and all. Meanwhile, me- Qad- Qzai- Miza and Aisyah had gathered in Mint’s room (neighbour to Aili) with the cake and all. All the while, I was nervous~ I always am in times of surprises. So around 12.10 we quietly went to her room, with candles and cake, and just when Aili opened the door to Mint’s usual knock-at-night, and she was really taken by surprise!!! Then came the birthday song and wishes and laughters and yes, the yummy yummy cake!!

The climax of the birthday ‘party’ was a pact all nine of us made. To meet again in 10 years’ time at a fixed place and appointed time~ No matter where we will be or what we will be doing, we are to meet to fulfil this bond which had been made. And I will remember this day, of this bond, of this pact. Insya Allah, we will meet. It’s actually something to look forward, I think everyone should have this pact with their friends. I’m already wonderingwhatwould all of us be, who our husbands would be, the children we will have. Ok, I’m getting excited already!! Now I can’t wait for that special day!!! It somewhat bring us all closer.

I can’t wait for that day. Insya Allah, all of us would have accomplished the best in our lives.

Why must I noticed every single thing?? Every single thing that someone puts in the profile and why must I think that those have hidden meanings in them?? Why must I noticed?? Can’t I be like some blur person and not noticed them??? Someone puts some Cake songs in the profile, and I went to look for the lyrics to those songs, and I can’t help but think there must be something. Furthermore, I know the songs that this someone likes will eventually have something to do with the things that this person is facing through. And I know what this person had gone through, so ……shit, I know! I know the feelings, the thoughts, just from reading those lyrics and I know why this someone likes those songs~ I know!

Am I paranoid or what?? Or am I just caring too much??? I’ve had it with them ah!!

And amidst the ‘happiness’ concerning Adit, I know I have to keep a distance from him. He’s being a good friend helping me through that cd, but I know, (because I noticed too much), that there has to be a distance. And come on lah, Adit, I just want to be friends…it’s not like I like him a lot~

So that’s it~ I’ve had it. Especially with the aforementioned person.

Yesterday was a very unexpected day for me!! And I am still glowing over what happened last night…

Firstly was my Religions exam. I was so surprised by how easy and straightforward the questions are!! And what was even more surprising was all the things that I read were the ones that were asked! I almost screamed the moment I read the questions. But not to be too happy, insya Allah, I answered well, but it will be guaranteed that the lecturer will mark them strictly! So I’m praying for the best now.

After that, me, Qad and Mint went to pasar malam. So I was hoping that I would some ‘interesting’ people there, but unfortunately no~ That doesn’t matter much. So we bought some food and crackers and a vcd -Malay movie Gangster. We went back and had dinner at HS canteen. Then suddenly I got a message from Aili asking where I was and that a friend of ours, Usama, wanted to see me!! Surprise, surprise!! Now why would Usama wanted to look for me out of the blue?? Yes, he’s a friend but it was weird that now he’s looking for me, like it’s some important matter. So my mind was wandering and worried, I was nervous. Now, for one thing, Usama and Adit the cute guy are friends and Usama knows that I have a thing for Adit. Mint and Qad gave so many suggestions on why he’s looking for me. Maybe Usama just wanted to say hi or something. So we waited for him at HS, which he took such a long time to reach~

So then I saw Aili, Shasha and Usama and another guy!! And I was like, who’s that guy?? Don’t tell me it’s Adit!! But no!! Thank God…it was another friend of Usama. I asked Usama what was it that seems important to see me?? And surprise2, he took out a cd from his bag and gave it to me. I didn’t really look at it at first, and asked him what’s in it? I was really confused. Usama just said it was for me. So when I looked at the cd carefully ……….there’s some Arabic scribbling there and I saw Adit’s name!!! And I just screamed aloud, and the rest of the girls got excited too, and HS was awaken for while! Then Usama said the cd was from Adit, for me!! I said thanks to Usama for I don’t know how many times!! I was smiling the whole night and the girls kept teasing~

Back in Mahallah, went to Qad’s room and we played the cd in her laptop. It was a very interesting cd! All kinds of Flash clips all in Arabic, and there’s even clips that might be important for my Fiqh Sirah subject!! I am so touched by this gift! I did mention to Adit that Fiqh Sirah is a hard subject, but I didn’t imagined that he would like collect useful clips, and burned them for me~ I am so touched and still am. Now I really need to see Adit to say thanks! So yeah, that’s the most happening thing that happened to me for the whole week~ Thank you Adit!!

Watched Gangster last night which was the malay version of fast and furious, which was kinda cool, all those racings uptown in KL. But the storyline was not that strong or thrilling> Nothing much.

And this morning, I did my washing. Three sets of them! One using the washing machine down in my block, and two more sets handwashed!! I’m happy anyway!!

Thanks Adit!!

I’m at the library’s multimedia lab now, trying to ease my miind…having a headache now and I’ll be having a most important exam tomorrow! Religion!! And I have not really finish reading them. It’s not that I haven’t read any at all, I had before, but you know, when it’s exams, you fill like you haven’t read enough. I’m just praying for the best.

My first two exam papers was Alhamdulillah, quite easy…Study of Qur’an and Arabic language. I hope I did well in those. I was blessed for my Study of Qur’an, we had to read four long surahs, and what I did was just read the first fifty verses of every surahs and surprise2, all the questions were from the first few ayats of the surahs!! I was really blessed but still, no full confidence yet. I’m hoping for the best.

So tomorrow will be Religions paper and I am really worried because I heard the questions are going to be much harder and would be more critical and comparison of religions. Thank God, the exam will be in the afternoon at 3. So I have plenty more time to read.

Ok, till here now, got to catch up on reading.

Two days to my first exam, which is on this Saturday – Study of Qur’an II which I had not read a single thing yet. Nevertheless, my week had been quite a fun one, spending time with friends. And I did study….a little… I spent whole days in campus, either at HS -lunch, hanging out, discussion, or at the library – computer lab, revision, hanging out reading newspapers, or at the Cafe near the river (which we call ‘longkang’)… A final reminder : STUDY SERI!!!
I did have revision and discussion but I know, most of the time, we were just talking~ That’s what happened when we are in a group, less study, more talk. But no one is to blame, I enjoyed hanging out… Insya Allah, I can do it!

My family will be going down to KL next month, after my exams!!! I’m thrilled!! I can’t wait for them to come here!!!

Had my mid term test for Christianity and Alhamdulillah, I passed. Got the same marks as the previous test. So now I’m worried for the real deal, the final exam, which of course will be a much harder one. I hope I can do better in the finals.

Last evening went to ‘night market’ and surprise, surprise….I saw Adit in a car with a friend!! And what’s cute was that he recognized me!! OK, me, Mint, Qad and Kak Nunu was walking along the night market, and we had never bothered to look at the cars passing by before, but yesterday… I don’t know he was there, Mint saw him first and and suddenly looked surprised at me…at first I thought there’s some guy she had a crush on, but then my eyes were ‘attracted’ to this car and there he was!! He saw me!! Of course, there’s nothing going on, just something to make me happy and spiced up UIA life~ But he is cute and no harm being friends with him. And he drives!!

And lastly, certain someone has not replied yet to my message. Last Sunday, I believe we were online at the same time! But so unfortunately the pc I was using had no messenger nor irc so I don’t know how to communicate with him. Why I said so, because when I received his message, the time stated that he was only five hours ‘away’ from me, so I replied back…and suddenly a newer message from him came on. So yeah, we were online at the same time!!! And now, I’m anxiously waiting for a reply from him…maybe it would be the point which everything will be clear… clear to me on what is really going on because I don’t understand the situation~ I hope he will understand~

What I did today??

Oh yeah, had a Halaqah exam today, which I hope I can get an A for that. I mean, it’s one of the easiet ‘paper’ to get an A for. Kalau tak, rugi!!! What’s it all about?? It’s about ‘ethics’ and how to live your life the Islamic way… The exam is only 20%, 80% would go to our participation, presentation and attendance throughout the semester, I know I can get 80% flat for that~ Still, please….A!!!

Then spent the afternoon in the library with Fiza, discussing about Religions subjects, we’ll be having another test on Christianity this Monday… So I’m revising for exams as well on that.

I had a good talk with Kak Halimah yesterday in the library. I envy her way of thinking. She really thinks far and sure about what she wants and going to do~ She talks of the troubled and confused Muslim world, and something about relationships and her experience. So I thank her for that. People around me has been teaching me quite a lot and I didn’t get them from the friends I usually hang out with. I don’t know why~ I thought I have the friends that would help me, but not yet I guess. I’m still finding myself…moral of the story: know more people. Just like most lecturers has advised~

OK, got to get back to my room, and continue my revision~

Oh yeah, another thing…I was taken by surprise and still can’t forgive the person who did it to me…..
I was at HS with Mint, she had a discussion, I was having mu lunch….and the rest, Miza-Mah and Qad wanted to go to some warehouse Adidas sale. So I had wanted to spend the day in the library and I didn’t know I got a message from them till the last minute.
So they arrived at HS, met us, Mint was paying for the car….and suddenly these people came, asked why I didn’t reply to their messaged, and just out of nowhere, two fingers pulled at my ear!!! What the…..!!!! Who the heck is she to pull at my ear??? Even my Ratu and Romo never do that!!
In fact, myRatu, cared alot about my ear~ And what’s with the ear ‘sickness’ that I’m having right now, so the hurt from the pull really hurts!!! It hurts like shit!! And I can never forgive her for this!!! Seriously~ My Ratu was so concerned about my ear, and here some people out of nowhere, did this to me. No forgiveness!

You see lah, this guy…
I have promised myself not to message him until he sends me one. And so he did after like almost to two weeks with the very much appropriate question ever…. “Am I angry at him??”
That was his question, and what am I supposed to do?? I don’t know whether my anger was that obvious but seems like he knows~ He always seems to be able to read my mind!
And now, I’m contemplating whether to reply to him or not~